Part-3 A Realisation

Letting go of all her pain that had been brewing up in her heart,she for once more sat up to decide and finally get a hold of the situation.For how long could she allow herself to believe things to be all right when they weren't?Something had to be done now and that something had to be done by her.Now was the time for her to act.To get back her dignity,her self respect,her rational thinking,to get back herself whom she had lost in the past year owing to her relationship with him.Evrything she had done and every action of hers had been dominated by just one single thought-how would he react to this?would he approve of this or not?
But today,life had finally burst the bubble within which she had been resting, fooling herself.All these months there was a continuous battle being fought between her and the world.A world that tried to make her see the true facets of things and her who rejected and failed to believe it.She had always been sure he loved her and would always do so.And so,with that little assurance from her deceptive heart,she had gone way too ahead to fight for him,to fight for their relationship.Not understanding that she was slowly and gradually secluding herself,she kept on struggling to proove to everyone that he was not wrong!That he had been in love with her just as much as she was!And of course,as people failed to understand what she wanted them to,she backed out from their lives.She abandoned them gradually.Her friends,well wishers,evryone.And today when she soo badly wanted to look back to know that someone must be there for her,she realised what she had lost in the year.She felt helpless.She wanted to go hug someone and be assured that yes they are there for her as her world has fallen apart but she knew she couldn't because the truth was she had made them all go away from her.
As the realisation of certain things dawned upon her,the pain in her heart and the grief in her mind transformed into anger and disgust for him,for herself.Today,she decided that no mater what, the time had come to go and settle down scores.To go and Confront....

Part - 2 (Mind or Heart?)

Part -2

               After what seemed to be a lifetime,she finally gathered enough courage to get up from her bed on which she had been lying for the last two hours crying uncontrollably. She got up and sat. Again the scene on the terrace flashed across her mind and her lips startled to tremble,forcing out tears from her already swollen eyes red with crying.She knew she had to be strong.Enough of fooling herself.Enough of believing,trusting blindly now.Enough of being innocent and weak.No more was she going to give in to the situation now.She had had enough now.She calmed herself down,continuously rubbing the top of her hand with another hand.Her tears were not ready to yet vacate her eyes.Yet her mind had already attained the state to be functioning again.Numerous things were running now through her mind.Many things starting to make sense now which once had seemed fake and absurd to her when others had told her.But still,even now,even after coming face to face with the reality,a part of her heart still yearned to prove her eyes wrong.Her heart still wanted to believe that whatever she saw wasn’t true.Her mind tried as hard as it could to make her understand but her stupid,stubborn heart just wasn’t ready to accept anything.Again it started knitting its web trapping her inside a fake world making her believe that everything she saw tonight maybe was not actually true.Maybe he was not at all wrong.Maybe he did no mistake after all.She, for once again,like the numerous times,started rationalizing with her own self telling herself that no,maybe afterall it wasn’t him  that I saw!Maybe it wasn’t actually what I thought was happening!Of course he loves me,didn’t he say that?Yes, loves me.He had said that he won’t be leaving me no matter what!and so her heart trailed her off the truth into some other world of her own.A world she had created herself to escape the harsh truths that had been told to her by people about him.A world where her own useless reasons existed which in every way defended each of his mistake.A world where for every mistake of his,she had blamed herself for not believing him rather than others.And for once more,she had started drifting towards that world.She knew she was fooling herself but it had all started to seem so easy now.She was already starting to feel relaxed entering into this world of hers, where she believed he can never be wrong and so here it was.She changed the truth now.She rejected the reality.She made herself believe in every possible reason that could exist to justify him.She made herself believe in the false now.As she sat there,reasoning with her ownself in every possible way,her mind once again tried and revolted against her heart and flashed the scene on the terrace before her.Wherever she had been trying to reach with her unending reasons for him to be correct,the memory served its purpose of pulling her back from the clutches of her decieving heart and bringing her to par with the truth.For once again,her state of mind and the pain in her heart began to break her bit by bit as she slowly rolled down on to the bed,pressing her face deep into the pillow and once again for that night,her emotions emerging out as unending tears and sobs.

A LOVE UNFELT (Part-1)

Hiee. I have just begun to write an emotional yet full of love and longing story and felt bound to share with you all. It's just the first part today. Many more to go. Hope you like it.

With loads of love,
Shu

PART-1


And a silent tear traced its path out of her hazel coloured eyes, onto her thick black eyelashes, down her frowned cheeks and onto the crease of the blue coloured woollen shawl that had been protecting her against the harsh winter winds that night on the terrace. A thousand things ran through her mind. A thousand words she gulped down .A thousand curses wanted to escape her throat. A thousand wishes she wanted to make to change the reality in front of her. But the only action her numb mind and body was able to perform was pull her back from where she was standing, alone in the dark under the sky lit with a million stars twinkling and the crescent moon trying its best to outshine them. She turned around, for the last time asking herself if she should go and confront him or not. And before her mind could answer, her heart asked her to go away. She quietly came out of the terrace door into the building and slowly started climbing down the steps which now looked nothing less than the best to escape from life, to fall down and escape into a state of physical pain rather than facing this pain that had risen in her heart, in her soul. But then she knew he would never have had wished this. Or did he really ever care? With all little strength she could gather, she entered the lift next to the flight of stairs she had just climbed down from. The door to the lift opened and a pre-recorded message said WELCOME. She remembered how at one point of time, he and she used to make fun of this pre-recorded voice and how she used to laugh at his silly imitations of the voice. She pressed the button to the second floor in the lift and another blow struck in her memory when for the very first time his fingers had touched hers while pressing that button and she had blushed all she could at the chill that had ran through her body at his touch. The lift reached the second floor and she came out. Without looking to the right where another treasure of their numerous memories resided, she took left. With shivering hands and held back tears, she opened the door to her house. She stepped in, closing the door behind her. Slowly she walked up to her room, her body feeling as if the whole world was weighing on her shoulders. Her room was the only place that seemed to have changed the least that night. The room was the same, warm and cosy with a blue flower printed bed sheet spread on the comfortable double bed, three pillows arranged on the head side in a straight line and a big life sized yellow teddy bear lying on the centre of the bed. Unable to control herself anymore, she ran onto the bed, hugged her teddy bear and broke down .A strong girl who had once stood alone to go against the entire world for him succumbed to uncontrollable sobs that night. Tears, tears and more tears fell out of the eyes which had once seen his innocent smiling face full of love for her. His eyes craving for her. His heart longing to meet her. His hands searching for her hands to hold. His lips lusting to meet hers. Those eyes that once held the dreams for their future were nothing but just a plain canvas today searching for every way to paint back those dreams again. Between uncontrolled sobbing’s, she asked herself if it was she who had failed or was it her love so weak? Could she have done more, fought more, begged more or was all this bound to happen?

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Happily Unmarried

Happily unmarried is one of my favourite unique stuff shopping brand and India's coolest company. It was anti established in 2003 with no vision and no business plan.  But now, they make fun products, do music festivals, work with corporates when they want to do interesting work and lately they have been doing a lot of projects involving branding, communication, interiors, marketing, all rolled into one (Information from their website- http://www.happilyunmarried.com/).

The measure of creativeness that the products hold comes very clear from the company's logo itself. And it inspires me a lot.

   

I got to know about them in the year 2013. It was rainy season and I was walking down the lanes of Connaught Place, New Delhi with my two sisters. Trying to save ourselves from getting wet, we sheltered ourselves in a little corner. After a few minutes of standing there, my eyes rolled and were captivated at the sight of a board which read "Happily Unmarried". I had a very weird expression on my face (as told by one of my sister later on) and my mind boggled to know what it actually was? Three of us entered the store. It was a very small one. But in no time, this small shop had me with a mouth wide open. The variety of products that they had and the amount of imagination they reflected was stunning. Just a few minutes later, the shop manager had all of us indulged in a game. We had to guess the ideas behind some mind puzzling yet innovatively painted tea cups. And yay, I managed to guess most of them correctly for which I was rewarded with a sling bag :D  Followed next were some moments of laughter and sheer indulgence in knowing about the brand. It was good to know that their theme is to go eco-friendly. All in all, it was a beautiful and an inspiring experience for I got to know how one's imagine can be channelled in the right direction and can spread joy around with maintaining that 'MANGO AADMI' thought intact.

A few products from their brilliant collection..

Luggage tag

My purchase: Inchtape pouch

TheFilmyOwl cushion cover

Door mat

Beer mugs, CD holders and keychain holder

I gifted this to one of my friend: Wall clock

                                                          Bitch please pocket mirror

HU official laptop bag (The same print in on their carrybags)

                             I hope you loved their collection as much as I did at the first glance and still do.

                                                                             Loads of love,
                                                                              Author Div :)

The Da Vinci Code

 The Da Vinci Code- I completed reading the book just two days ago and since then, I have been trying to search for the various mind boggling details that had been mentioned in the book! While reading, I had no idea that whatever information regarding the priory of Sion, the Holy Grail, those symbolism and Leonardo Da Vinci were actually facts that exist. I just typed in on google to know if really the priory of Sion do exists and I got goose bumps when I actually went through the numerous articles on the internet. I was shocked to know that such a secret society really is claimed to have existed. Victor Hugo, Isaac Newton, Leonardo Da Vinci, all had been the Grand Masters of this society protecting the powerful secrets of Jesus Christ! I mean I really don't mean to offend anyone but Jesus Christ’s lineage is existing even today as it seems to be claimed in those articles and the grand masters of these secret society have been trying to protect the holy blood lineage! I am definitely shocked about this! The descendants might just be here on earth now being protected by the grand master! And the Holy Grail, numerous perceptions of it beings a chalice, a cup, a woman and many more. Nothing discovered to prove what it actually is but yet it is believed to exist and some related evidence of its existence resides in this world but no one really know what it is! And then for the Mona Lisa, I researched about her, about her mysterious smile but nothing could I understand of the high tech language in which all her dark secrets had been claimed to be revealed! But yes I definitely learnt that there are two three layers already painted over which Mona Lisa has been painted, there is some miss proportion between the fingers in her hand and for her smile...it is still a mystery waiting to revealed!

 And readers, if you know some more please do tell them to me in the comments! The Da Vinci Code definitely proves to be a spine chilling novel. It may not seem so good while reading or after you have completed reading it, but once you get researching about the different secrets mentioned in that novel about Christianity, about Jesus Christ, you are definitely going to feel the thrill of the novel!! I loved it!

Author- Shu

A fight gone SWEET

OK. So this post is about the bitter sweet relationship me and Divya share. Just yesterday, first thing in the morning as soon as our eyes opened-we had a big fight and serious one and that too over where to go next Saturday- movie or party! I wanted a party and was not ready to negotiate and neither was she for her plan about the movie! I felt so frustrated and literally would have killed her had she been physically present anywhere near me! We fought and I said things that I shouldn't have but I had no control over my anger and I was just reacting to the situation that time! After the fight, when I realised I might have lost her forever, I broke down! I cried and I really asked myself why am I so stubborn? Why do I always want things to be just the way I want? Why don’t I try and compromise ever? And with this guilt came back surging in my mind memories of him and me. It started to seem as if actually there is some big fault in me and that is why I never have people stay in my life for long!! First he left, then a guy who was a very dear friend of mine went away, and now Divya also. The whole day I couldn't concentrate yet I had this big ego that didn’t allow me to even call her up and sort things out!

At 8 pm, her name flashed across my screen and an instant smile spread across my face! Yippee!! Finally she is calling. I picked up her call and tried to be as firm as I could but my heart was doing its own merry dance inside. She explained her side, made me understand, scolded me. And within half an hour we were grinning like idiots over the phone planning for the movie! :D

All efforts to be harsh, rude, firm gone vain when we got talking!! I don’t know why but really no matter how many times in a day I swear I am not seeing her face ever in my life, my day can never end without her being there! :') Every time we sort out after a fight, my love for her and my faith that she no matter what is going to stay forever deepens. Every fight lets me discover my faults as well as the different dimensions of her and mine friendship!

Maybe this is what they call friendship!! Ready to kill for one moment and the next moment you want to hug them tightly!! <3

Author- Shubhi ^_^

RAIN- Teeming Memories

  In vision of the night, like dropping rain,                                          descend the many memories of pain.

As it rains here today with the winter chill grasping me, standing in the balcony feeling those light showers hitting across my face takes me down the memory lane. It is strange how we really do have no control over certain aspects of this world yet we love them and hate them. I had no control over the rain yet I loved it when it came. Similarly I had no control over him when he came but I loved it when he was there. This rain today forces me to be reminded of the night when I and he had walked down the lanes holding hands. Rain is sure to be the most romantic weather. Yet romance, love is never complete without separation and pain! And today, with each of these little droplets falling down I feel somewhere that memories are just like these droplets. At start, they come down little by little and then, altogether they hoard your mind!

                                                                       

                                       Rain didn't make things messy,
                                                       People did that all on their own.                                                       

Author Shu.